bedside table manners – 3/2/15

3/2/15 11:21pm – 11/14/15 10:24pm

bedside table manners
(this these words that are three)

how can you touch me so sincerely
when you love me nowhere near the
way your placed hands do?

by now you must know how much the
words you speak through touch; three
would mean to me if were true

why then through the motions fraud me
with mannered language of your body
i know not, but now see through

and though you sit with elbows unseen
good manners my love does not mean
you hunger at the table as i do

it is all too all too much the
words you speak though just three
that beg of me ‘and i you’

to this these words that are three
sighing i’m saying it can’t be
though i wish it weren’t true

how one loses the title ‘and only’
with mid distance eyes of your own see
my spell, your cell you outgrew

yes, though you sit with elbows unseen
good manners my love does not mean
much at this bedside table for two

useless number – 11/8/14

11/8/14 11:55pm – 11/13/15 7:11pm

useless number
(in speaking for the unspoken for)

useless useless number
be for me what they couldn’t
comfort me with quantity
although i know you shouldn’t

undress undress me as
before the others had
but as for the grand total please
to it do not add

fruitless fruitless number
be more than lovers had
unlikely as it may be
to grip what’s scantily clad

useless useless number
speak for the unspoken for
but as for me convince please
that less, yes less is more

study for useless number – 11/8/14

11/8/14 11:55pm – 12/9/14 8:35pm

study for useless number
(its soaked veil lifted)
(the grand total shifted)

always quick to share
the first to read aloud
the last to leave alone
with uncommanded crowds

but now you hear me
you listen good and well
a list in spit was kept
for me to kiss and tell

see its soaked veil lifted
here it is if ears allow
near it is; the useless number
pruning in mysterys shroud

see its soaked veil lifted
hear it being rung out
fear not the grand total shifted
fear no fruitless amount

karaoke crooner – 10/30/14

10/30/14 2:25pm – 10/30/14 3:51pm

*karaoke crooner

i made your bed
where we laid out
on the night we fought
when i walked out

i bicker and stew
like a cartoon
i just animate you
then i leave the room

i made my bed
i’m laying out
on the couch you bought
that he picked out

i sing a little tune
to a giggling you
i karaoke croon
genius perfume

*karaoke crooner is based on the work, “fool”, by perfume genius from his latest album, “too bright”.
karaoke crooner is meant to act as alternative lyrics to the track.

myth doubts – 10/18/14

10/18/14 9:10pm – 12/1/14 3:33am

myth doubts
(eight syllables)

please hold my other hand
’cause this one doesn’t count
please try and understand 
what i myself don’t know about 

these both are working hands
but one i do without
squeeze not the one i damn
for the right-handed this myth doubts

it started god knows when
and only he knows why
on earth his own children
are born to minds they’re crippled by

from such an early age
a poor child of rituals
come to a later stage
and find a life now rich with rules

it started with my right
but spread there from the hand
i pray an end’s in sight
but i am kneeling to demands

i say an end’s in sight
but i am feeling such a fool
as i sit here and write
taking care there’s eight syllables

please take this absurd hand
against my own free will
please make me understand
and don’t let go of me until

where there’s tunnel there’s light
if lead in i can be lead out
i say an end’s in sight
but i myself have doubts

the quicksand that is perfect timing – 10/5/14

10/5/14 8:38pm – 10/13/14 9:32pm

the quicksand that is perfect timing
(afflicted with cold feet)

i think you know where i stand
it’s where you hoped we were going
it’s there you lead me by hand
to a line in quicksand floating

you drew it with your own hand
as to say lets swim or sink
and now that we seek dryland
you say lets stay and have a drink

i think i know where you stand
it’s where out of i’m climbing
you’re neck deep in the quicksand
holding your breath for perfect timing

study for still life with mistaken keepsake – 9/28/14

9/28/14 1:03pm

study for still life with mistaken keepsake

keepsake under a microscope
from a painful point in time.
i recognize that it’d be stupid to just about anyone else, but they are not to me.
that’s not from a night with us –
you are mistaken. it was another.
“they aren’t all from dates you know?”
it coincidentally has my lucky numbers on them: 3 33.
“i like knowing your month’s flower is a violet and your stone is amethyst. did you know that?”
“yeah, I did.”
“why do you look so sad?”
“because it happens.”
its the association
it’s those colors on that rectangular paper, it’s that card stock, and that stupid fortune that i associate with a painful point of time that i do not look back kindly on.
“i have keepsakes from others, but you’ve never been confronted by them.”
“do you want to keep it?”
“no, i don’t want it..actually, can i have it?”
“because i’m going to use it.”
“for what?”
“something i can not help doing.”

soft habit – 9/22/14

9/22/14 10:25am – 10/1/14 5:29pm

soft habit

the want i need it runs so very deep
the rabbit hole i went down so very steep
soft habit, just once let this lying dog sleep
why rabbits when you could be counting sheep?

the company kept is never to keep
the chase the thrill of it always i seek
soft habit, spare please these rabbits in heat
call off the hunt if there’s no plans to eat

the beds i climb into are never for sleep
the pillows my head hit; rabbits are biting
soft habit, take my leash for i am too weak
lead me to water so i might drink

the want i need; what i’ve sowed i must reap
the beds that i made; in them i must sleep
soft habit, just one promise i ask you keep:
promise in this fur coat you won’t bury me

soft habit, my master put your pet to sleep
promise it will be wool when you bury me

would-be anniversary – 9/21/14

9/21/14 1:38pm – 9/21/14 6:34pm

would-be anniversary

happy would-be anniversary
would that you could spare the time
i’m not seeking an eternity
just this day that would’ve marked nine

could it be you’ve cleansed the memory
of this day to make room inside?
there’s three-hundred and sixty-four others i see 
that are left to which nothing is tied

all that i ask is for you to be 
at this table for two where we’d dine
happy would-be anniversary
would if it could cross your mind

happy would-be anniversary

the bush we beat around – 8/30/14

8/30/14 10:06am

the bush we beat around
(as obvious as the earth is round)

you don’t have to wear it
when he is around
on or off your finger
it’s where it can be found

you don’t have to swear it
is safe and is sound
with you or without it
to you it is bound

if you can not bear it
don’t let it weigh you down
my every other day queen 
you can take off your crown

i am well aware it’s 
as bad as it sounds
you don’t have to say it
just to hear out loud

what weighs on you to wear it
doesn’t weigh a pound
this ring is a symbol
of the bush we beat around

but we musn’t dare quit
for fear of being found
it to me’s as obvious
as the earth is round

detail i will spare it 
and just reword what i’d found
with you or without you
to you i am bound