8/1/12 5:51am
possesion
(it is 5:51am)
dreamt i was in a weird house.
i wanted to leave for some reason.
when we walked outside three people were being arrested
for hitting a police vehicle.
the man was resisting arrest trying to break handcuffs
cops take us and show us these people who are doing this stuff
and playing satanic music.
in the dream music and voices start droning.
i turn over on my back, which i never do, and with my arm across
my face, in zahira’s room which I’ve never slept in, i start to feel
pressure being applied to my body especially around my arm.
i notice i’m breathing out of my mouth which i also never do.
i hear the sound of creaking which i deduce is zahira turning
over in her bed.
she is also making sounds.
it felt like she could have been standing over me, but I’m pretty
sure she wasn’t.
at this point i start to think i’m going through some sort of possession ritual.
i feel like i could move if i tried, but i don’t.
i just let it keep happening.
eventually i decide to stop it and open my eyes even although i thought they
were already open.
the circular image combined with light and shadows i had seen while staring up
still remain, but are fading.
the images formed from shadows looked like snarling jackolantern cut outs.
maybe intermission.
now i sit under the blanket typing this.
i’m sweating a lot and my stomach is making weird noises.
lastly my arm is very sore (the one that was laying across my face).
maybe i had been “dreaming” longer than I had realized.
now i’m going to take the blanket off of my face and hope there isn’t a face staring
at me on the other side.
my eyes will be closed so i won’t know either way.
it is 5:51am.
maybe it means the van got broken into.
here goes.