6/15/13 10:14pm – 7/3/13 3:26am
what happened today:
(proved fruitless)
(in bored retaliation)
i awoke trying to recall a dream that had not ever happened
convinced i had only just forgotten it.
my searching eventually turned to a bother that would follow
me for much more of my day than it should have.
i worked at the record store until one pm before asking to be
let out of work early since i can’t think the way i like to be able
to while clocked in.
after my searching proved fruitless i sat alone on blackholes’s
outside patio over coffee while working out a piece based on
lyrics zahira had written for her song “painless mouth”.
i planned a well-timed interruption by inviting chris to meet
me at the cafe after giving enough of myself to my time.
we carpooled to try an argentinian restaurant per chris’
recommendation.
i ordered and ate a caprese salad, a vegetarian argentine
sandwich served hot but that was meant to be served cold,
and a diet coke.
i also ate a bag of lays bbq chips on the house, but did not order them.
on the way out chris took a free “cafe argentina” postcard to later give
to zahira as his way of saying “look what you missed out on”.
we drove to grandprize in the museum district for happy hour
and i ordered a well gin & tonic to chris’s non-happy hour maker’s
on the rocks.
zahira called me towards the end of my drink to confirm that
she would like to join us for the movie “jazz abstractions” chris
& i had planned on seeing at the museum around seven.
..and that she’d also like a sandwich waiting for her when she
gets off work at six.
chris & i drove to the museum of fine arts to purchase her ticket
in advance in fear of the showing selling out.
we picked her up a way less satisfying vegetarian sandwich from
subway compared to the argentinian one i had earlier & made
sure to let her know it when we picked her up with the postcard.
we went back to the museum to watch the film about early
animation in the thirty’s set to jazz in the museum’s auditorium.
then back to the same cafe patio for our friends band’s benefit
show and another coffee in tandem.
for a nightcap we had more well drinks at double trouble.
a couple about our age laughed at me and took a picture of my
outfit from afar inside of the bar.
i approached them and made it very apparent i was taking a
picture of them as well.
the miserable girl told me. “but yours didn’t have a flash. it’s
not going to turn out well”.
to which i quickly replied, “believe me it does not make any
difference with you guys..”.
i did not make anyone of my friends or girlfriend aware
of this interaction.
for the rest of the night the couple stared at my table laughing
in bored retaliation.
i made accidentally inappropriate small talk with a friend
without a father on the eve of father’s day.
i talked my way out of it just barely.
on the way home i told zahira about my interaction with the
couple earlier in the night to explain what seemed like their
unprovoked odd behavior.
for the entire ride to drop her off at her car we argued about
my “mistake” in not telling her sooner.
i drove home feeling as if i could not win.