three three thirteen eleven fourty-four pm – 3/3/13

3/3/13 11:44pm – 3/4/13 12:26am

three three thirteen
eleven fourty-four pm

why do the rhymes have to fit just so with the next?
why do i torture myself with this task?
all to fulfill a prophecy that was probably hatched
just to make it easier for the listener to memorize
the writer’s words.
i am compromised from the start without realizing it.
& have unconditionally commit myself to it blindly.
i don’t know why i ‘insert relative analogy’.

she decided the course of my night in answering no.
“i have to pee. do you want to pause it?”, i said
springing from bed.
maybe i had not consciously decided whether i’d like
to stay to watch or leave to write.
i know that then & most times i do not possess the ability
to say what i’d like her to do.
so i phrase it in the form of a question that serves to make
her answer with a guess at what my body was really trying
to tell me.

“no, i can keep it running” she answered.
“okay”
“are you coming back?”
i said something along the lines of, “i thought so”.
i very easily could have sat & watched alice in wonderland.
i’m sincerely jealous she is watching it really.
here she comes now.
“hey cody..”
“huuuhhh?” (a closed lips or close lipped response)
“hey..are you alright?”
“yeah, just shitting & writing”
“oh”
“some more than the other”
“haha, okay”

i had to close with wit to draw attention away from having
been locked in the bathroom for the past fifteen to twenty minutes.
maybe ‘i chose to close with wit’ would be the better way of phrasing it.
three four thirteen.
twelve twenty-six am.